7/1/2018 0 Comments My MILLENIAL Life CrisisI always thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I know what I’m good at, I know what I like; but recently I’ve been doubting myself and I’m wondering what it really is that I’m meant to do. Who am I really supposed to be? A question that’s been plaguing todays teen society, I’m sure, but I’ve always been the one to tell everyone else that we’re so young and we have time, so it feels almost wrong to suddenly be on the other side. Maybe that’s why I’m so reluctant to adhere to my own advice, but the truth is, I don’t know what I'm doing with my life just as much as anyone else does. I don’t know how much time we really have before we need to sit down and start making adult decisions. And not knowing is what worries me. I want to feel passion in the work that I do, everyday for the rest of my life and I want to love everything that comes as a product of that. But if I don't know what that passion is and where the work comes from, how can I achieve my ultimate goals of success?
This past week I was at a publishing and editing program at Susquehanna University in Selinsgrove, Pennsylvania. It was one of the best weeks of my life. I’ve made amazing friends, created an amazing book and presented that book to a room full of people who probably had no idea what was going on, but it was a phenomenal experience. I listened to a woman talk about working for Marvel comics and how she felt moving onto a smaller, independent company was the better choice for her. I want to be able to know that the work that I’m doing now, is better for me in this moment, only so that it can prepare me for bigger things in the future. After thinking for so long that publishing and editing would be the job for me, I’m worried I will never be able to find what I’m looking for. I like to write, that’s why I went to the program, but I don’t read the same books as I used to. I don’t read as much as I did, and I don’t like the same genre as everyone else. So, as much as I would love to write a book or be featured in a magazine, I’ve told myself that I don’t like journalism. I don’t want to be famous or be on TV but, just as so many people don’t know what publishing really entails, maybe I’m judging too quickly before I even know what it is. I don’t want to be a news reporter or have to write for a magazine that doesn't allow me to express my independent voice, but I like having a blog, so what's the difference? I created Intuitive Minds after two years of creating fake blog articles and enjoying how things looked. Now I can’t even keep up with it because I feel like I’m no longer writing stuff that I like. My articles no longer have the sustenance that I need to keep me moving forward. So, if I can’t even keep myself interested, how will I ever be able to capture the attention of my readers? I’ve read other articles and blogs about how to get started, how to keep articles on stand-by as I move forward, but I’ve had photos promoting my newest clothing haul for months now, and I guess the truth is, I don’t really care to write about fashion as much as I enjoy wearing it. Maybe I'm better off writing this-an article I’m writing on Microsoft Word with no spell check and no preconceived thought on what I want to say. I’m just writing and that’s something I think I lost as soon as I started making my thoughts public. I know over the summer I’ll have a lot more time to write, so maybe I need to go back to what made me want to start this blog in the first place. Maybe recreate those fake articles and post them so that others can read them and enjoy them as much as I do. Maybe I should learn about what journalism really is and not be so close minded. Maybe…I should just take my own advice and enjoy the ride. Thank you guys, so much for reading and following me on this journey. Its going to be a bumpy ride but this summer is going to be fun. Don’t forget to like, subscribe and share. I’m going to be posting more frequently, so stay tuned for more. Until Next Time! With Love, Arianna
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